the new me.

i used to be an avid blogger. i've always loved to write - in a different life i may have dreamed of filling pages of books with stories and thoughts, however; in the last year my writing fell by the wayside as i transitioned from an office manager with many extra hours of free time into becoming the mother of an infant who has quickly turned into a very busy and energetic little boy, and a full time pre nursing student. every time i visited my old blog(s) and read my posts, there was always a twinge of sadness...not only do i love to write, but (as most of my family and close friends can attest) i chose to use my blogs as an outlet for my ideas, dreams, and opinions of things i am most passionate about. i have often felt like i have let go of part of myself by not blogging this past year, since i've been writing consistently for about a decade now....so when we decided to move back to colorado and i knew i would be taking several months off of school, i decided that i needed to push myself back into reclaiming my passion for writing again. with no anatomy flashcards to study or physics tests to stress me out, i hope to have more time to dedicate to sharing my thoughts, passions, and sometimes direct opinion with those who choose to read me.

once i found my old password and was able to log into my account again, i spent some time going over my thoughts from previous years. reading old blogs is sort of like unlocking an old diary and looking into a mirror of who you used to be. sometimes i blush a little at my brashness, roll my eyes at my immaturity, and every once in a great while i am proud of myself for who i've been, and the things i've stood for. the first thing i noticed this time around was the title of my page: "thoughts of a wanderer". my first instinct was to click "edit" and change my title, because it is obviously more of a representation of who i once was rather than who i am today...someone who changed location and moved a lot (although i did recently move cross country twice in one year...), someone whose thoughts were always wandering the globe, obsessed with global development and how we were all interconnected, a version of me who had no idea what was coming - that in two short years I, genae, would actually be settled down in the suburbs of colorado, at home full time with my son, cleaning up toys from the living room, watching "baby einstein", folding laundry, and holding onto a dream of someday helping women and babies in birth. yes; a lot has changed in the past few years for me, and when i saw "wanderer" i realized i am not much of a wanderer anymore. my life is fairly predictable and i strive more for stability than the unexpected now - but in light of that, i am choosing to keep my title so that it will remind me that although i may be physically confined to my 3 bedroom townhouse most days, loving on my son and doing what seems unimportant to most of the world, i want to remind myself to not forget that part of me that cares so much for the world afar, and that my blog can be an outlet for my wandering thoughts and crazy opinions that i'm unable to talk about on a daily basis.

and so this is the beginning of something new. i look forward to journeying with all of you.